I don't use this blog as a means to vent very much, and the decision to keep it that way was made very purposefully. The problems that loom over this world are heavy, and it does not need me, little me, to add to the cloud.
Today, though, I learned a valuable lesson and that's why I am making an exception here and there.
I had a tough day.
Now I am a little more human, a little more tangible to you all.
I may act silly, joke, kid around but even I have bad days.
I have to be honest again, I have been struggling with a couple of things in my life that I have been searching for answers to. Seeking God to reveal how things need to be, in His eyes. Seeking His face and wanting to live life righteously. I will let you know, I am not super great at it, and I have been completely impatient. Today though, I landed on this sweet lady's blog and through her words, her sweet reflections of the Word...He kind of just whispered in my ear all the desires of my heart. Part of the post from Periwinkle Confessions, included this set of verses Ecclesiastes 1: 1-11
“As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother`s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the maker of things...Sow your seeds in the morning and at evening and let not your hands be idle, for you do not know which will succeed, whether this or that, or whether both will equally do well.Light is sweet, and it pleases the eyes to see the sun. However many years a man may live, let them enjoy them all… Be happy young man, while you are young, and let your heart give you joy.. but know that for all these things, God will bring you judgment. So then, banish anxiety from your heart and cast off the troubles of your body, for youth and vigor are meaningless.”
I will never have all the answers. I can cry and vent and get angry, question the people around me that I love, question God, get bitter and cold. Become truly un-beautiful. That will get me nowhere in this life. Yet, I can leave behind all these struggles, the anxiety over not understanding, wondering what is my life about and where is it going. What is my life's value. He has already said all that. I may not know each step, but if I live according to Him, for this day, it will be worth so much more in the end. Youth is fleeting, life is an instant that's why He charges us to lean on Him and to live.
So whether you believe in God or not. Whether you study the Bible or think its a book of tales. Whether this is popular to talk about or makes some of you mad. I have to say it. Need to.
Learn a lesson with me?
Don't cry over unchangeable circumstances.
Don't get stuck questioning things that have no answers.
Don't turn your life into something unlovable because of emotions.
Let it go.
Let it go.
Let it go.
There is so much wonder, in this world and so many hurting people. I need to get up and start doing a little more for others. I am entirely small in comparison to all the billions.
...and I am so much more encouraged now than before.
I hope you are as well.